Don't mind the title, it's just me trying to be dramatic. Nevertheless, the wait is over (still dramatic!). This picture spoke to my heart. Perhaps, you'll understand at the end of this short piece.
The anxiety started in 2012. I was scared to the bones. I was afraid to fail (I didn't start with a very good GP). Sometimes, I was scared to talk/act (they're just too many smart people in my class... Damn. Why y'all gotta be so smart?) Then, I became scared to stay strong. Scared to love. Scared to have friends. Scared to trust (I really had trust issues as an undergraduate). Scared to hurt others. Scared to be irrelevant. Scared to eat. Scared to sleep. I was too scared and as a result, there were too many regrets, and too many apologies.
My heart was knotted, and not in a fancy way. It was knotted with fear and fear of failure, it was telling on my esteem, and I knew I had to erode the fear, I started by challenging myself. I wasn't scared to pray, and I prayed all the time. I wasn't scared to ask questions. I wasn't scared to famz people. I wasn't scared to make a few friends (eventually). I wasn't scared to read (lol... dare not). Wasn't scared to be talked about. Wasn't scared to laugh (oh… I'm known for this) or be laughed at. Wasn't scared to be short and skinny (do I have a choice?). Wasn't scared to impact knowledge. Ultimately, I wasn’t scared to be a success.
I focused on myself, and I'm grown now.
One time, someone asked- how come you have so much faith in God. I replied- I'm evidence of faith. Plus, you just have to believe in something anyway.
Now, with no regrets and no apologies, confidently, and with utmost conviction…LL.B over and out!
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